A few days ago I got a text message from Smug-Sister letting me know that sometimes in pregnancy your sleep can get really messed up and you can have really strange dreams. So, last night I had this dream about watching my dad dying. It was so real and so painful that I when I woke up I was already crying. I cried in bed for about 20 minutes, I just couldn't shake the dream. Smug-Hub never really woke up, but in his sleep he knew that I was upset and rolled over to wrap his arms around me in comfort. But, I still couldn't calm down, so I got up. This was 4am. I was crying so hard that I thought I was going to get choked and throw up. I finally was able to calm down and have some sparkling water, OJ and some crackers.
I finally was able to fall asleep on the couch for a few minutes at a time. I found myself feeling afraid of falling asleep for fear of falling back into my dream.
I have been feeling tired and sickly all day as a result. I tried to get out of the funk by going to a few yard sales with Smug-Hub and Mom and we did find a few one-piece things for the new baby, but the sales were slim pickings. I am also finding that I am going to be very picky about the stuff I buy for the baby. If it comes from a yard sale it has to be in the packaging or otherwise pristine. It can't come from a smoking household, and it has to be washable. Otherwise, the stuff for the new baby is going to have to be new. We saw some stuff, like an Eddie Bower diaper bag for $2, but it was stained and dirty. My baby deserves the best, not some stained, filthy crap!
I have been resting on and off with getting the house cleaned up. I am not going to have the energy to clean the bathrooms or dust and vacuum, but all the clutter is picked up, the kitchen is clean and the laundry is going, so I am happy with that.
I need to make up a grocery list and get to the store today and I really want to go to mass tomorrow, but other than that I am going to listen to my body and do lots of resting!
Sounds like a pretty vivid dream you had. I tend to have dreams like that all of the time..and I'm not even pregnant..
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